(Cute cats from a cat cafe I went to during my last admission)
So I can’t sleep… shocker I know! I don’t get good sleep and I have a lot of problems falling asleep. I did get a sleep study done and I have some breathing issue but I’m getting it sorted out. Anyways since I’m sick my sleep is like 10x worse. Sometimes I’ll be up anywhere from 2 til 5am, yes 5 freaking am, as in the morning! And then I’ll sleep til 1pm. I can’t sleep because of my breathing issues and just the overall uncomfortableness in my lungs, I’m guessing from all the mucus.
Anyways as you can tell I can’t sleep. And the reason this time being breathing problems. I am taking my inhaler even though it never helps but mine as well try it… again. I’m taking 4 puffs instead of 2 so maybe it will help, probably not. I hate taking 4 puffs though because it makes my hands shaky and I can’t sit still. I’ve been on a antibiotic for my lung infection for over a week and have also been put on a steroid. My last admission was in the beginning of June so it’s only been a month or so since this happened last. I went to clinic last week and my pfts were ok, my doctor said they weren’t where she wanted them but it’s not like I needed to be admitted right then and there.
Anyways I am aware that this post I all over the place but that’s kind of the point of my late night thoughts writings is just small updates about my health and art and other random stuff. I’m being homeschooled this year. Me and my sister have wanted to be homeschooled since 7th grade which is the time our health started to go downhill. It’s too much for us to miss so much school and have to make up so much work and it just adds to anxiety. I’m actually pretty excited because I can do more art stuff and maybe even grow me and my sisters YouTube channel and start posting stuff regularly and I also want to start uploading to my blog more. For my electives, and yes there is electives for online school, I want to do some art and take a veterinarian science class. When I’m older I want to do something with animals or art as my career but I still have some time to decide but even if I chose one I would still do the other one. When I’m old enough I want to volunteer at pet shelters and foster animals.
So as I’m typing this it’s Sunday night, we’ll really Monday morning, “I’m” (aka my mom) is going to call my hospital “today” or Tuesday. I’ll of course give updates and if I get admitted I’m going to try to do art posts still but I will still do hospital diaries. But I might change it up a bit so I will continue to record my health even after I’m discharged since I think I’m going to go back to staying in the hospital a week and doing two weeks of antibiotics at home. I would talk about my day, my antibiotic schedule, getting blood draws and just overall my life of when I’m sick. Maybe I can call it the Brianna Diaries? Bri Diaries? The Salty Life Journeys/ journal/ diaries? Something with A&R in it? I don’t know give me some suggestions in the comments.
That’s all for now bye…
-A&R (art and roses)🌹